Well, my grandmother’s funeral was yesterday.

The service was lovely (the priest was excellent, which is not something I’d say very often – I’m not Christian, much less Catholic – but he gave a very tolerant homily, and made us all laugh more than once), and then we had a reception back at the house for family and friends, which was surprisingly easy for me to handle, despite the fact that I hate social situations like domestic cats hate water (or perhaps even worse!). The sun was shining brightly, and it was the warmest day St. John’s had seen so far this year… the priest joked that Granny must have more pull than he did, to have arranged the weather so well. She would have loved it.

I’m coping. Writing definitely helps, so I’ll be doing more of that today, tomorrow, etc. Even likely to be doing some work on original stuff…

Going back to Toronto early Sunday morning (will, in fact, be arriving in time to go to brunch with my aunts).


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My grandmother passed away this afternoon.

We knew it was going to happen – despite my hopeful message of Thursday morning, they discovered when they ran the EEG that the right side of her brain was entirely destroyed, and the left side was damaged, so my Mom and her sibs were trying to get her moved into palliative care (what they do for terminal cancer patients) because Granny would never have wanted to be kept alive as… well, a vegetable, essentially.

The next few days are going to be hard. There may end up being some rather sad fic written because of it… writing tends to act as a catharsis for me.

I’m just glad that I managed to get down here, and was able to see her – and she knew I was there. It counts for a lot.

Just wish Brightspot was still alive – hugging her always made me feel better. I’m missing her more now, because I could really use her help to deal with this; she’d always let me cuddle her, and cry into her fur, and she’d purr to help…

Got to at least get the worst of the tears over with before Mom gets back – she’s going to need me.


Here In St. John’s

Well, arrived in St. John’s at 3:45pm (Newfoundland Time) yesterday, having been up for almost 20 hours at that point (I worked Tuesday night), then went to the hospital to visit Granny, then had dinner with one of my aunts.

Granny was… more responsive yesterday than she’d been since Saturday, so that was good.

Going out to lunch with the cousin who was in Toronto in the fall…

Later, minna!

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Off to St. John’s…

Grandmother had a massive stroke last week, and hasn’t woken up for about 4 days (she ended up with pneumonia on Saturday) so my sister and I are off to St. John’s. Don’t know how long we’ll be gone…


It will depend on the situation there.

Still, I will be glad to see the rest of the family…


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Happy Mother’s Day!

Happy Mother’s Day to all mothers (and expectant mothers – *winks at sister*) out there! Called the grandmothers, will call my Mom this evening…

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More Random Ramblings…

Well, I’m working tomorrow – 12 hr. shift. Volunteered for it, since our weekend person is taking the day off (the week before she leaves, actually), and am hoping to get at least a bit of creative work done among the patrols and keeping an eye on the people there for the Fulford debate…

Plus, my knee is buggered all to hell right now. I occasionally have this problem where my kneecap(s) decide(s) it/they don’t like the position they’re supposed to be in, so it/they shift slightly. Not fun for walking places… and even less fun for handling stairs (of which I have to walk up 2-1/2 flights to get to my apartment). Luckily, it’s not too bad at the moment, and having a cane handy is pretty much enough to deal with it.

Had breakfast with my “adopted” aunt this morning – met her after work. Had a nice, long chat (we spent about 2 hrs. there, all told) and she told me all about the 2 weeks in Costa Rica visiting my parents that she just came back from on Monday. She had a great time, and it sounds like it was as relaxing for her as it was for me (which was definitely nice). And apparently the cat toys I picked up in an effort to replace the knitted mouse that Gypsy (the new puppy) took a liking to were a real success – she said all four of the cats loved them. (And given that only two of them played with the knitted mouse, that’s not bad!)

Okay, that’s about it for the random ramblings… got to have something to eat, take my tablets, relax for a bit, and head back to bed so I can head into work for 11 tomorrow morning…


Hello From Costa Rica…

Well, I made it! I am now here in Costa Rica, watching the beginning of a lovely sunset from my parents’ study window, having met the new members of the Goold Zoo v2.3, and greeted the old ones (and got my Scrappy-Cuddles in! He was delighted to see me…).

Won’t be online as often while I’m down here (each call costs, plus time costs), but I will be on every couple of days at the very least.

It’s so lovely and warm here… even Mom & Dad’s place, which is cooler than San José (which was actually 20C when I arrived, at 1:15pm local time, not 27C). Just what I need, I think, to de-stress. And I’ve got two weeks of it… *smiles dreamily*

Hoping to get quite a bit of writing done while I’m here. Last time I was in Costa Rica, I wrote quite a bit of HP fic, including the beginning of Harry Potter and the Sensitive’s Gift. This time, I hope to work on RuroBatt, Eye of the Storm, Harry Potter and the Sensitive’s Gift, another RuroKen story that Kenshin and Saitô have shoved down the connection between my brain and the infamous Plot Bunny Corral, and one of my original stories. But the primary purpose in being here is to enjoy time with my parents, relax, and de-stress, so those have priority.

Later, all!

Countdown to Costa Rica: 1…

Well, it’s now less than 24 hours until I leave; just over 26 hours until I’m due to land in San José (which is apparently due to be 27C tomorrow). *bounces excitedly again*

So looking forward to seeing my parents again, and visiting CR for the second time… I really can’t wait to go. And I’m looking forward to the opportunity for Scrappy-Cuddles – I miss Scrapper. Haven’t seen him since Christmas/New Year’s 2002/2003. And Mouse too, of course (though I’ve never really cuddled Mouse…). Not to mention meeting the new cats: Thor and No Se; and the dogs: Don Quixote de la Rancho, Sancho Panza, and Misho…

Now, I’ve just got to get packing…

Yep – It’s A White Christmas…


Bad enough we had ice on top of snow, but to have more snow on top of it? At least the snowfall seems to be easing after about two hours… well, what I can see of it through the security cameras and out the window behind my desk…

Only just over an hour and a half left of my 12 hr. shift – I’m looking forward to going home and spending the rest of the night with the cats.

Had a wonderful Christmas Eve with my aunt at her place, and I got some very nice pressies from everyone. Going to be calling the Newfoundland relatives up tomorrow to offer thanks to my grandmother, and express my wishes that everyone had a good Christmas…

And even being here at work for most of Christmas hasn’t been too bad. It’s always been my habit to spend Christmas afternoon relaxing with any books I manage to get, or writing… and while I haven’t exactly been doing that (while I brought one of the two books I was given to work, I haven’t gotten around to reading it yet – I’ve been pre-occupied with other stuff) it’s still been a fairly relaxing day.

With the exception of the exterior patrols. It’s not fun trying to watch your feet to make sure you don’t slip on the ice that’s on the ground while at the same time trying to check the second and third story windows from outside to make sure they’re all closed… But I managed it, and without any spills! *cheers*

Then got involved in a fascinating email discussion with Vathara (RK, GW, or Stargate fans might know her fics on Fanfiction.Net), going from last night to today, and now I’ve got one of those blasted RK plot bunnies in my corral! (Which is obviously going to have to be expanded – it’s starting to get a wee bit too crowded in there… Wonder if my parents’ place in Costa Rica has the metaphysical space available to provide an expansion?)

Anyway, hope everyone had a wonderful Christmas, and here’s looking forward to a Happy New Year! (Quite in advance, yes, but good wishes never hurt…)


Ramblings From At Home & Tired… (AKA Mishmash of Stuff)

Came across a rather neat website a few days ago – excellent resource for writers who are doing stories involving travel/international plotlines:
World Clock: Time Zones
Check it out!


In terms of what I referenced in my previous post…

On Monday night (after I slept all day, of course – having been up for over 24 hrs. by the time I got home from work in the morning), I found out that my great-uncle Fabian had passed away on Sunday.

I didn’t know Uncle Fabian terribly well – at least not as an adult; I’ve only been out to Newfoundland once in the past ten years – but I do remember him as a wonderful man, who used to take us out in his motorboat up at his cabin, and let us pilot it around the lake… and lent my immediate family the aforementioned cabin at least once or twice when we spent Christmas out east. We generally saw him at least once or twice on visits out there when I was younger, and he was always kind to us. I shall definitely miss him.

One thing I never failed to mention when I told anyone about Uncle Fabian – having been quite proud that he was a member of my family – was that he served a term as lieutenant-governor of Newfoundland (from 1963-1969). It always impressed me greatly that kind, quiet Uncle Fabian spent time as a reasonably important member of the Newfoundland provincial government.


At last, no kids at work for two weeks! Peace and quiet! I may even manage to get some writing done! (*peers guiltily at the current texts of Eye of the Storm and Harry Potter and the Sensitive’s Gift…*)

Dinner & Holiday Shopping: Pt. 2

Had a wonderful Cousin’s Belated Birthday Dinner at Scruffy Murphy’s – we got there early enough that there was no crowd in the dining area, and we had excellent food, a reasonable background noise level, and some interesting conversation. Definitely worth going out, even in this weather.

Holiday shopping… I’m stunned at myself. I now have only two or three more people to buy for (c’mon, Papa, what do you want?), and I’ll have everything for everybody!

Even sent out the second batch of Christmas cards… (Newfoundland group, you’ll be getting yours when Alain gets back). I’m simply amazing myself with my efficiency this year.

Going to bed soon – this weekend is going to be busy

Busy Week

Well, looks like I’m due to have a very busy week.

There’s work, of course: My usual overnight shifts going from Sunday night to Friday morning, plus the 12-hr Saturday shifts I’m doing this month until the beginning of January (i.e. working 6 days a week).

Then there’s friends (which is a good thing, considering I haven’t been seeing most of them for a while): Just had dinner with the TorFen (Toronto Fen) group, which includes my fellow members of Blackfly Presses (Canadian fanfic zine publishing! *G*). Then on Sunday afternoon, I’m getting together with my monthly get-together group of SF fans (none of whom I’ve seen since Toronto Trek last July). So that’ll be busy.

And one can’t forget family, especially considering the season: I’m taking my cousin out for a belated birthday dinner on Friday night, and then I have the regular brunch with my aunts, sister, and cousin Sunday morning…

And that doesn’t even mention the writing I’m trying to get done.

Yes, it’s going to be a busy, busy week. But I’m rather looking forward to it…

Working Late, Parents, & Observations on Cats

Working late today, as my supervisor is off on vacation, so the rest of us are filling in when we can. Working late tomorrow as well. Definitely going to be exhausted, despite the duty not being overly onerous – 12-1/2 hours can take it out of one. Oh well – as of noon tomorrow, I’ll be enjoying my weekend, and I don’t have to work Saturday this week, so that’s a good thing… especially as I have to finish cleaning my apartment.

My parents are visiting (arrived in T.O. Tuesday night), and are coming over early Sunday afternoon – to see Mitzy and meet Aspen – so the place has to at least look neat, rather than the… ahem… mess it is now…

And speaking of my cats, I’ve found a rather interesting thing… Aspen (the new one – see CPR, AED, Cats, and Rec Pages from Nov. 13th) treats me unlike any other cat the family or I have had. Brightspot was a friend I grew up with (and am still mourning) and was very definitely my owner; to Mitzy I’m a lap, comfortable knees, and a means to get the attention that she is owed by right; and Aspen seems to regard me as a giant cat with opposable thumbs. It’s weird – she treats me exactly as though I were a cat (butting her head at my forehead to show affection – rather than a headbutt at my stomach or a hand to demand attention), giving me the same sort of treatment she gives Mitzy (though I don’t get licked nearly as much – Aspen licking me is much more rare than seeing her lick Mitzy). It makes for some interesting observations on feline behaviour. She really is an adorable little beast, who is becoming more and more affectionate faster than I had thought she would (having grown up on the streets).